REAL HUGE UPDATE!

Dear followers and people that happen upon this blog,
Sorry about the lack of updating for so freakin long. I actually may forget a lot of what happened but I will try my best to tell you everything that has happened since my last post was October 24th 2009 D;

October
My Boyfriend Danny, came down for Halloween as you know it was a blast. His best friend Gordon also came along. We all had a great time but it was really sad when Danny and Gordon had to leave I actually was very upset and cried and I hugged both of them. And I told my mom I would miss being able to actually play games with people that wanted to play games with me and we all essentially were always in a group so I told my mom I was going to have a very lonely feeling for quite a long time :(

November
Nothing really SUPER Important sticks out in my mind for this month... it may also happen with a lot of months xD haha I remember lots of fighting with Hector though. My ex whom I dated for like 8 months and we broke up because of complications and he said some nasty things about me that were very much uncalled for even if he was pissed off @ me. -.-

December
Christmas basically and my birthday =/ My birthday actually my boss and one of my residents we all had the same birthday hehe so I went to work on my day off and wished her a Happy Birthday <3 It was very cute she was so happy. For my birthday we all went out to eat at Boston Pizza basically my Dad is going through a divorce and he basically made my birthday supper about him. What a nice guy eh? -.- Some people piss me off so much.

January
New years I worked to keep my mind off what happened 3 yrs ago. And I went to Regina (45 mins away it's a city) to visit a friend and be there for her 19th birthday I think she really enjoyed it

Feburary
My newphew Gavin moved into our house because of complications and the fact his mom is making him suicidal. I fuckin hate his mom she is such a god damn bitch. She never should have been a mother she is horrible @ it.

Before on my vacation to see Danny I got a haircut and my hair dyed. I'm looking quite better than I used to that's for sure it's quite nice :)

I also went for like 10 days or so to visit Danny it was really nice to have a vacation but I guess when I got back his family started talking shit behind my back. Nice. Next time I go I am taking my best friend Chelsi with me. But his one cousin she thinks I abuse him. His younger sister thinks I'm a bitch because I tell Danny what he can and can not eat and set boundaries like that for him. Ok first off if you don't know what the fuck abuse is go look it up on urbandictionary. Cause I've been through abusive relationships all my life and even DANNY knows I'm kidding around when I hit him. For his younger sister all I have to say is I would rather not have Danny die because of developing a chronic illness, getting Diabetes (he is native so he is more prone to getting it), having a heart attack and or stroke. His family eats WAY to much. They eat as much as farmers eat but farmers work their ASSES off all fuckin day. Danny's mother Crystal told my mom the whole time I was there that I starved myself. Because they ate more than I did the mom thought I was starving myself. It was honestly fucked up. His dad (not biological father his real dad he calls his sperm doner since he has never actually met him) sat there all day calling him lazy and fat when he is about 3-4 times bigger than Danny. His family in my opinion uses and abuses him. They use him for his money and his kindness and I dislike them. I wish he would move away from that shit so he could be happy and not be controlled.

March

Recently I got a full time position at the establishment that I work it is very awesome there. :) I love it and I'm so glad for a full time job cause that means I will be able to save up the money I will need for my schooling!!! I have been thinking about going for my LPN (Licensed Practical Nurse) after going for my CCA (Contiuing Care Aide)

I also put on my Gaia Journal for some close friends of mine a choice for me to sing them a song dedicated to them and post it on Youtube :) I am very excited for this but also very nervous I will need to go out and buy an actual mic so that they can hear me when I sing instead of from my webcam so I won't have interferring background noises and such. I really have to write down a list of songs I want to sing some for those people and some just for dedications for people who don't know it yet ;D

Recently my ex of about 2 yrs ago named Blair got ahold of me on Facebook. He said he wanted to apologize for the way he treated me and that since I left his life it hasn't been the same that he hasn't had a decent friend since then. So we went for coffee and talked about all the stuff that has been happening since we haven't talked for 2 whole years. I have this bad feeling he wants me back... and Chelsi thinks so as well since the saying goes "you don't know how great something is until you lose it."

I have been gaining weight and breaking out since I haven't been near Danny. But soon Chelsi and I plan on going for walks and such and working on our weight together :) it also doesn't help that mother nature has struck and that's why I'm breaking out. God I hate it.

I'm REALLY going to try and write more blogs on a regular basis for Doll since it's hard for me and her to talk cause our lives are so damn busy and now that I work Night Shifts only pretty much full time it's really hard :(

I've been playing a shit load of Borderlands as of late xD and I also realized that Anibus on my Xbox live friendslist is a really really fuckin great friend of mine now. He's awesome. I can talk to him cause he's my best friend I've actually cried in front of him once cause of stress and things. He actually amazingly enough respected it and said that's why he liked me so much cause I was so real and down to earth. Anyways I know what he looks like he looks exactly like the clown Joker as a cartoon and he's a goth. Fuckin amazing I think and fuckin trippy. I always did love Goths lol. He has a wife who I hear about she sounds pretty amazing actually and he has some kids I don't quite remember how many I know he has a son named Joseph and a daughter I believe.

One time we were talking cause he doesn't know how I look lol. Well he hasn't seen a picture of me. So we were talking I don't remember what EXACTLY started it I think it was something to do with my ex seeing me and stuff. Anyways he said that from the sound of my voice I sounded beautiful and so I told him that I have green eyes and I have an olive like skintone kinda white too and that I have red brown hair mahogany was the name of the color and he said that I definitely had to be beautiful. Yea it was quite nice hearing it but @ the same time I don't very much like getting compliments so I kinda laughed made a joke and brushed it off.

I also flipped the fuck out on my step sister. Well my mom did actually. Not so funny story. I went to put my jacket on getting ready to go for meet Blair for coffee. I put on my beautiful black gray plaid coat it's very nice and lo and behold my step sister's drivers license is in my fuckin coat. So I screamed "WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING WEARING MY COAT!" My mom came out. She called my step sister her name is Tabatha. Anyways and she was asking why her ID was in my coat pocket. Her excuse you may ask. Pathetic it was this "Well I put my id in her jacket and then went outside to have a smoke then came back in put my jacket on and left." My mom told her to learn to lie better cause that was bs. And to leave my shit alone cause I was upset and pissed she had taken my coat without my permission. That jacket cost me about like $100 or so. So I believe I had all the right in the world to get mad. I mean like fuck don't take my shit. Yea. And funny thing is she has seen me. Has been ignoring me pretty much and has NOT Apologized for taking my coat without my permission. Pretty fuckin nice right eh? She's also trying to get my step dad and mom to buy her things she doesn't fuckin need. After getting busted for takingmy jacket she went out and wanted my step dad and mom to buy her $80 boots and a jacket like mine. And the thing is we are raising her oldest fuckin child. She has 2 so we ourselves are having a rough time with money since my fuckin lazy ass half brother lives there and doesn't even pay rent and takes advantage of my fuckin family. My half brother Daryl hates my mom I know he does since it's not his mom and uses her cause she's a caring person. Pisses me off and that's why I hate him. Completely and totally hate him.

Not very impressed with people as you can tell.

For my mom's birthday present I got her Swarvoski Crystal figurine it's 2 seahorses it's BEAUTIFUL it cost me about $160 or so. But she deserves it after all the shit she's been through. And I got a notebook (laptop) for a belated xmas present since i only got a few small things :) But yea that's about all I got right now haha <3 :) love you all! *muah <--- kissing noise* xD