Dear followers and people that happen upon this blog,
Sorry about the lack of updating for so freakin long. I actually may forget a lot of what happened but I will try my best to tell you everything that has happened since my last post was October 24th 2009 D;
October
My Boyfriend Danny, came down for Halloween as you know it was a blast. His best friend Gordon also came along. We all had a great time but it was really sad when Danny and Gordon had to leave I actually was very upset and cried and I hugged both of them. And I told my mom I would miss being able to actually play games with people that wanted to play games with me and we all essentially were always in a group so I told my mom I was going to have a very lonely feeling for quite a long time :(
November
Nothing really SUPER Important sticks out in my mind for this month... it may also happen with a lot of months xD haha I remember lots of fighting with Hector though. My ex whom I dated for like 8 months and we broke up because of complications and he said some nasty things about me that were very much uncalled for even if he was pissed off @ me. -.-
December
Christmas basically and my birthday =/ My birthday actually my boss and one of my residents we all had the same birthday hehe so I went to work on my day off and wished her a Happy Birthday <3 It was very cute she was so happy. For my birthday we all went out to eat at Boston Pizza basically my Dad is going through a divorce and he basically made my birthday supper about him. What a nice guy eh? -.- Some people piss me off so much.
January
New years I worked to keep my mind off what happened 3 yrs ago. And I went to Regina (45 mins away it's a city) to visit a friend and be there for her 19th birthday I think she really enjoyed it
Feburary
My newphew Gavin moved into our house because of complications and the fact his mom is making him suicidal. I fuckin hate his mom she is such a god damn bitch. She never should have been a mother she is horrible @ it.
Before on my vacation to see Danny I got a haircut and my hair dyed. I'm looking quite better than I used to that's for sure it's quite nice :)
I also went for like 10 days or so to visit Danny it was really nice to have a vacation but I guess when I got back his family started talking shit behind my back. Nice. Next time I go I am taking my best friend Chelsi with me. But his one cousin she thinks I abuse him. His younger sister thinks I'm a bitch because I tell Danny what he can and can not eat and set boundaries like that for him. Ok first off if you don't know what the fuck abuse is go look it up on urbandictionary. Cause I've been through abusive relationships all my life and even DANNY knows I'm kidding around when I hit him. For his younger sister all I have to say is I would rather not have Danny die because of developing a chronic illness, getting Diabetes (he is native so he is more prone to getting it), having a heart attack and or stroke. His family eats WAY to much. They eat as much as farmers eat but farmers work their ASSES off all fuckin day. Danny's mother Crystal told my mom the whole time I was there that I starved myself. Because they ate more than I did the mom thought I was starving myself. It was honestly fucked up. His dad (not biological father his real dad he calls his sperm doner since he has never actually met him) sat there all day calling him lazy and fat when he is about 3-4 times bigger than Danny. His family in my opinion uses and abuses him. They use him for his money and his kindness and I dislike them. I wish he would move away from that shit so he could be happy and not be controlled.
March
Recently I got a full time position at the establishment that I work it is very awesome there. :) I love it and I'm so glad for a full time job cause that means I will be able to save up the money I will need for my schooling!!! I have been thinking about going for my LPN (Licensed Practical Nurse) after going for my CCA (Contiuing Care Aide)
I also put on my Gaia Journal for some close friends of mine a choice for me to sing them a song dedicated to them and post it on Youtube :) I am very excited for this but also very nervous I will need to go out and buy an actual mic so that they can hear me when I sing instead of from my webcam so I won't have interferring background noises and such. I really have to write down a list of songs I want to sing some for those people and some just for dedications for people who don't know it yet ;D
Recently my ex of about 2 yrs ago named Blair got ahold of me on Facebook. He said he wanted to apologize for the way he treated me and that since I left his life it hasn't been the same that he hasn't had a decent friend since then. So we went for coffee and talked about all the stuff that has been happening since we haven't talked for 2 whole years. I have this bad feeling he wants me back... and Chelsi thinks so as well since the saying goes "you don't know how great something is until you lose it."
I have been gaining weight and breaking out since I haven't been near Danny. But soon Chelsi and I plan on going for walks and such and working on our weight together :) it also doesn't help that mother nature has struck and that's why I'm breaking out. God I hate it.
I'm REALLY going to try and write more blogs on a regular basis for Doll since it's hard for me and her to talk cause our lives are so damn busy and now that I work Night Shifts only pretty much full time it's really hard :(
I've been playing a shit load of Borderlands as of late xD and I also realized that Anibus on my Xbox live friendslist is a really really fuckin great friend of mine now. He's awesome. I can talk to him cause he's my best friend I've actually cried in front of him once cause of stress and things. He actually amazingly enough respected it and said that's why he liked me so much cause I was so real and down to earth. Anyways I know what he looks like he looks exactly like the clown Joker as a cartoon and he's a goth. Fuckin amazing I think and fuckin trippy. I always did love Goths lol. He has a wife who I hear about she sounds pretty amazing actually and he has some kids I don't quite remember how many I know he has a son named Joseph and a daughter I believe.
One time we were talking cause he doesn't know how I look lol. Well he hasn't seen a picture of me. So we were talking I don't remember what EXACTLY started it I think it was something to do with my ex seeing me and stuff. Anyways he said that from the sound of my voice I sounded beautiful and so I told him that I have green eyes and I have an olive like skintone kinda white too and that I have red brown hair mahogany was the name of the color and he said that I definitely had to be beautiful. Yea it was quite nice hearing it but @ the same time I don't very much like getting compliments so I kinda laughed made a joke and brushed it off.
I also flipped the fuck out on my step sister. Well my mom did actually. Not so funny story. I went to put my jacket on getting ready to go for meet Blair for coffee. I put on my beautiful black gray plaid coat it's very nice and lo and behold my step sister's drivers license is in my fuckin coat. So I screamed "WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING WEARING MY COAT!" My mom came out. She called my step sister her name is Tabatha. Anyways and she was asking why her ID was in my coat pocket. Her excuse you may ask. Pathetic it was this "Well I put my id in her jacket and then went outside to have a smoke then came back in put my jacket on and left." My mom told her to learn to lie better cause that was bs. And to leave my shit alone cause I was upset and pissed she had taken my coat without my permission. That jacket cost me about like $100 or so. So I believe I had all the right in the world to get mad. I mean like fuck don't take my shit. Yea. And funny thing is she has seen me. Has been ignoring me pretty much and has NOT Apologized for taking my coat without my permission. Pretty fuckin nice right eh? She's also trying to get my step dad and mom to buy her things she doesn't fuckin need. After getting busted for takingmy jacket she went out and wanted my step dad and mom to buy her $80 boots and a jacket like mine. And the thing is we are raising her oldest fuckin child. She has 2 so we ourselves are having a rough time with money since my fuckin lazy ass half brother lives there and doesn't even pay rent and takes advantage of my fuckin family. My half brother Daryl hates my mom I know he does since it's not his mom and uses her cause she's a caring person. Pisses me off and that's why I hate him. Completely and totally hate him.
Not very impressed with people as you can tell.
For my mom's birthday present I got her Swarvoski Crystal figurine it's 2 seahorses it's BEAUTIFUL it cost me about $160 or so. But she deserves it after all the shit she's been through. And I got a notebook (laptop) for a belated xmas present since i only got a few small things :) But yea that's about all I got right now haha <3 :) love you all! *muah <--- kissing noise* xD
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Dramatic person gone. Ftw! 8D
Ok so there is this guy. I dunno fucked up story known him most of my life. So anyways
his mom is getting married on Halloween. He will be known as Mr ? cause I dunno I'm not about to slap people's names and bad talk them all over the internet lol.
So anyways his mom's wedding is on Halloween. So he um was going to ditch his mom's wedding after 30 mins after the Reception (party part) got started. He was going to go out Halloween drinking @ the bar. His excuse to miss it was it was his "Mother's fault for having it that day when he wanted to go out Trick or Treating" Which makes absolutely NO sense since he has already told everyone he's going to the bar. Well funny story. He's also a compulsive liar. You essentially can't believe a lot of what he says well almost anything he says actually. He went and told this girl this and then told me he was staying @ the reception for 4 hrs then leaving. Anyways I respect his mom. She's a nice gal and yea she's pretty epic win and awesome. So anyways the conversation over text goes like this.
ok so basically it started with hearing from Kellie
that Mr ? was going to ditch his mom's wedding only stay 30 mins @ the reception to get drunk with some girl in a bar in the town over.
talking to him about it
he lied said he was staying 4 hrs (he’s a compulsive liar proven many many many times.)
Nessa: "Yea. No comment >>"
Mr ?: What? I'm not bound by ball and chain.
Nessa: "You have no respect for your mother i can see after what she has done for you."
Mr ?: "how fucking dare you. I have more respect for my mother than you do. She doesn't mind that I'm going, and I think four hours is enough."
Nessa: Yea. Mom bought you a car helped with your car. Helped find your apartment has done everything almost for you. It's her special day and you can't hold off till another halloween to be happy for your mom? There are many halloweens to come but 1 day that your mother asks of you. But 4 hrs is enough. And sorry to burst your bubble but I do respect your mom since I booked and am going to the wedding
and I'm not even her daughter.
Mr ?: Stop fuckin texting me. I'm done with your selfish self centered bullshit.
Nessa: No it's you that's selfish and self centered since you cant even stay a fuckin day for your mom and it's all about you. All cause it always has been. I am done with how cruel you are and your compulsive lying and the way you treat people and your excuses.
So I was out @ Boston Pizza with 2 good friends while this argument happened. So then I come home and @ 7:37 he leaves me a message on my msn. The Conversation goes as following.
:: (Mr ?) :: - Why can I never love the good boy? Mine always have to be bad. says:
what part of fuck off, didn't you get>
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Dude your the one still going on about it? For someone who doesn't wanna hear from me your sure trying hard lol.
:: (Mr ?) :: - Why can I never love the good boy? Mine always have to be bad. says:
Yeah sure whatever.
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days 8D <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Peace out I said all I needed to in a text.
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days 8D <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Bye see you @ the wedding. 8D
Now if no1 has ever seen the awesome face. Go look it up on Google. That's what 8D means. Probably the best face in the world. So basically I got rid of someone who I felt was being very cruel to me. About a week before me and Mr ? got into a fight cause he blamed me for using him for his vechile. Fact: Not true. I never want to stay @ my house cause there are 8 people residing here right now and it's to cramped and well everyone is on edge and bitchy and it's just not a good situation. Then I told him if he tried to maybe COMMUNICATE with me more he would know about my life and why I always wanna go out. I then told him that Friendship is a 2 way street. And I was the one always texting him. He never texted me once. But anyways on that note I'm done this rant I feel better and about 1,000 pounds has been lifted off my shoulder.
Oh and after I blocked him on my msn. He sent me an e-mail. But I'm not going to bother reading it. Cause it's honestly not worth my time. Since he obviously doesn't want to make it work since he ignored me on Gaia and then took me off Facebook. 8D So now he's going to spread nasty little things about me on Facebook. lol oh well people that do know me know I"m not like that. And the fact that I have proof of locked cell phone messages between the both of us and the copy and pasted convo means a lot more I guess than someone's word lol.
So tell me what you think and what not through a comment! Love you all 8D <3
his mom is getting married on Halloween. He will be known as Mr ? cause I dunno I'm not about to slap people's names and bad talk them all over the internet lol.
So anyways his mom's wedding is on Halloween. So he um was going to ditch his mom's wedding after 30 mins after the Reception (party part) got started. He was going to go out Halloween drinking @ the bar. His excuse to miss it was it was his "Mother's fault for having it that day when he wanted to go out Trick or Treating" Which makes absolutely NO sense since he has already told everyone he's going to the bar. Well funny story. He's also a compulsive liar. You essentially can't believe a lot of what he says well almost anything he says actually. He went and told this girl this and then told me he was staying @ the reception for 4 hrs then leaving. Anyways I respect his mom. She's a nice gal and yea she's pretty epic win and awesome. So anyways the conversation over text goes like this.
ok so basically it started with hearing from Kellie
that Mr ? was going to ditch his mom's wedding only stay 30 mins @ the reception to get drunk with some girl in a bar in the town over.
talking to him about it
he lied said he was staying 4 hrs (he’s a compulsive liar proven many many many times.)
Nessa: "Yea. No comment >>"
Mr ?: What? I'm not bound by ball and chain.
Nessa: "You have no respect for your mother i can see after what she has done for you."
Mr ?: "how fucking dare you. I have more respect for my mother than you do. She doesn't mind that I'm going, and I think four hours is enough."
Nessa: Yea. Mom bought you a car helped with your car. Helped find your apartment has done everything almost for you. It's her special day and you can't hold off till another halloween to be happy for your mom? There are many halloweens to come but 1 day that your mother asks of you. But 4 hrs is enough. And sorry to burst your bubble but I do respect your mom since I booked and am going to the wedding
and I'm not even her daughter.
Mr ?: Stop fuckin texting me. I'm done with your selfish self centered bullshit.
Nessa: No it's you that's selfish and self centered since you cant even stay a fuckin day for your mom and it's all about you. All cause it always has been. I am done with how cruel you are and your compulsive lying and the way you treat people and your excuses.
So I was out @ Boston Pizza with 2 good friends while this argument happened. So then I come home and @ 7:37 he leaves me a message on my msn. The Conversation goes as following.
:: (Mr ?) :: - Why can I never love the good boy? Mine always have to be bad. says:
what part of fuck off, didn't you get>
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Dude your the one still going on about it? For someone who doesn't wanna hear from me your sure trying hard lol.
:: (Mr ?) :: - Why can I never love the good boy? Mine always have to be bad. says:
Yeah sure whatever.
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days 8D <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Peace out I said all I needed to in a text.
Nessa+Danny ABC 5 more days 8D <3 Happy 1 Month Anniversary Danny I love you <3 {Sleeping} says:
Bye see you @ the wedding. 8D
Now if no1 has ever seen the awesome face. Go look it up on Google. That's what 8D means. Probably the best face in the world. So basically I got rid of someone who I felt was being very cruel to me. About a week before me and Mr ? got into a fight cause he blamed me for using him for his vechile. Fact: Not true. I never want to stay @ my house cause there are 8 people residing here right now and it's to cramped and well everyone is on edge and bitchy and it's just not a good situation. Then I told him if he tried to maybe COMMUNICATE with me more he would know about my life and why I always wanna go out. I then told him that Friendship is a 2 way street. And I was the one always texting him. He never texted me once. But anyways on that note I'm done this rant I feel better and about 1,000 pounds has been lifted off my shoulder.
Oh and after I blocked him on my msn. He sent me an e-mail. But I'm not going to bother reading it. Cause it's honestly not worth my time. Since he obviously doesn't want to make it work since he ignored me on Gaia and then took me off Facebook. 8D So now he's going to spread nasty little things about me on Facebook. lol oh well people that do know me know I"m not like that. And the fact that I have proof of locked cell phone messages between the both of us and the copy and pasted convo means a lot more I guess than someone's word lol.
So tell me what you think and what not through a comment! Love you all 8D <3
Friday, October 16, 2009
Excitment up coming for Halloween!
So Halloween for me will be a very exciting time! Not only is my bf coming down for Halloween with his best friend who is a cool guy himself. My friend's mom's wedding is on Halloween!
So I have my best friend going with Danny's best friend as date friends to the wedding and me and Danny are going as a couple as well!
I'm so uber excited there will be a lot of people I haven't seen in forever! Like Chantal! Last time she was down I bought her an epic Star Wars card for her birthday =3 I think she still has it somewhere. And I get to meet her bf Ian. He I'm sure will be a charming individual who I look very forward to meeting.
Then we have Ian (gay one) who is my Perfect Dark and Cute buddy! He's adorable! If I could make a plushie of that guy I damn well would lol!
Then we have Kain going. That guy makes me lol no matter what mood I'm in honestly. When we get together the inside jokes just start a going lol!
Then Chelsi of course who I knew before we were both even born (true story our mom's were pregnant @ the same time lol) She's a sweetheart and she is one hot native I tells ya.
Actually all my friends are hot now that I think about it!
Then we have my friend Kellie going with her date Jessica haha they are both a blast and I love them both <3
So to impress my man who is coming down I went out and bought some BEAUTIFUL Clothes. I'm sure Doll would be proud of me cause they are THAT Gorgeous. Some jewelery a pair of boots to go with my outfit. Oh man I'm so excited.
For the Halloween party I am going as Poison Ivy I can't wait! I am even going to dye my hair for it! Not like well uber red but maybe an auburn or something with a hint of red in it we will see what my hairdresser says!
So I blew $350 today on buying things for when my man comes down I even bought Lingerie haha although I couldn't find a bustier to fit over my tits >> cause I'm not anorexic and titless like most of the world xP So I bought an awesome bra and a cute thong to go with it <3 I'm sure Doll would also like to steal them from me if she got the chance xD lol
But other than that I just finished dying my mom's hair haha she's going to be a red head again. Aaannnndddd other than that nothing really happened today. If you would like pics of the clothes I got please message me and demand the pics of all the things I got cause I got quite a lot haha <3
But lots of love I will try and post again soon! Maybe even some cute couple pics of me and my hubby ^^ <3
So I have my best friend going with Danny's best friend as date friends to the wedding and me and Danny are going as a couple as well!
I'm so uber excited there will be a lot of people I haven't seen in forever! Like Chantal! Last time she was down I bought her an epic Star Wars card for her birthday =3 I think she still has it somewhere. And I get to meet her bf Ian. He I'm sure will be a charming individual who I look very forward to meeting.
Then we have Ian (gay one) who is my Perfect Dark and Cute buddy! He's adorable! If I could make a plushie of that guy I damn well would lol!
Then we have Kain going. That guy makes me lol no matter what mood I'm in honestly. When we get together the inside jokes just start a going lol!
Then Chelsi of course who I knew before we were both even born (true story our mom's were pregnant @ the same time lol) She's a sweetheart and she is one hot native I tells ya.
Actually all my friends are hot now that I think about it!
Then we have my friend Kellie going with her date Jessica haha they are both a blast and I love them both <3
So to impress my man who is coming down I went out and bought some BEAUTIFUL Clothes. I'm sure Doll would be proud of me cause they are THAT Gorgeous. Some jewelery a pair of boots to go with my outfit. Oh man I'm so excited.
For the Halloween party I am going as Poison Ivy I can't wait! I am even going to dye my hair for it! Not like well uber red but maybe an auburn or something with a hint of red in it we will see what my hairdresser says!
So I blew $350 today on buying things for when my man comes down I even bought Lingerie haha although I couldn't find a bustier to fit over my tits >> cause I'm not anorexic and titless like most of the world xP So I bought an awesome bra and a cute thong to go with it <3 I'm sure Doll would also like to steal them from me if she got the chance xD lol
But other than that I just finished dying my mom's hair haha she's going to be a red head again. Aaannnndddd other than that nothing really happened today. If you would like pics of the clothes I got please message me and demand the pics of all the things I got cause I got quite a lot haha <3
But lots of love I will try and post again soon! Maybe even some cute couple pics of me and my hubby ^^ <3
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Ever sad or anything read this lol!
If your ever sad and need to be cheered up. Just read this trust me the lol's don't stop. It's quite great. I'm on this iMesh it's a program to download music well SADLY it has a chat thing. So until I figure out how to turn the fuckin thing off I get people like this sometimes. And let's just say how stupid they are make my day. Lol enjoy
Nessaroxsohbby:
yea that's my pic
dabel3er:
ur face like my ass
Nessaroxsohbby:
Um. Excuse me?
dabel3er:
am jok come on
Nessaroxsohbby:
your sense of humour to me is not amusing
dabel3er:
i have nukler deck its gd for u
dabel3er:
fuck ur family
dabel3er:
bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
you really need to learn to spell and speak ENGLISH
Nessaroxsohbby:
you know
Nessaroxsohbby:
that language people from the United States are suppose to know but are to retarded to speak most of them.
dabel3er:
ur face is so fucking asshol
dabel3er:
loooool
Nessaroxsohbby:
Again you need to go back to school. English is a class for a reason there buddy.
dabel3er:
am arab not fucking amirca so fuck ur relgin
dabel3er:
fuck ur mom dad ses
Nessaroxsohbby:
I don't have a religion I'm athiest dumbass
Nessaroxsohbby:
wtf is ses?
Nessaroxsohbby:
that Arab?
dabel3er:
15 m deck its gd
dabel3er:
sester
dabel3er:
bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
Your going to fuck a 15 m Dog who has a deck?
Nessaroxsohbby:
What?
dabel3er:
ur ass is big
dabel3er:
ohhhhhh
Nessaroxsohbby:
I know and most men think it's hot.
Nessaroxsohbby:
Thanks for that Captain Obvious.
dabel3er:
mmm u r bh that good
Nessaroxsohbby:
Bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
Big hottie
Nessaroxsohbby:
thanks.
dabel3er:
if i but my deck in ur ass u will expload
dabel3er:
dabel3er:
looooooooooooooooool
dabel3er:
fuck ur face ohhhhhhhh
Nessaroxsohbby:
You have the worst burns I have ever heard
Nessaroxsohbby:
my nephews can do better
Nessaroxsohbby:
and one of them is 6
Nessaroxsohbby:
what next
Nessaroxsohbby:
gonna call me a Poophead
Nessaroxsohbby:
a meaniepants?
Nessaroxsohbby:
hhhmm?
dabel3er:
i know how to tolke shit only so come suck my deck its huuuug deck
Nessaroxsohbby:
I don't want to hug your deck and btw it's Dick. and you can't talk shit since you can't even spell talk.
dabel3er:
ohhh u r booorn fucking girl fuck u tink u r teatcher fuck ur face ugly face hhhhhh go see black man to fuck u asshol
dabel3er:
go to hell see u bh bb
Nessaroxsohbby:
Uh I'm not a teacher I just have a brain. I don't need a black man I have a native k thanks. Altho it's not hard to get a black guy. And you really need to come out of the closet that your gay cause I think you have some inner problems cause your fucked up.
Nessaroxsohbby:
Get help. k thanks.
Nessaroxsohbby:
and I'm already going to hell and I'm alright with it xD lol
Nessaroxsohbby:
yea that's my pic
dabel3er:
ur face like my ass
Nessaroxsohbby:
Um. Excuse me?
dabel3er:
am jok come on
Nessaroxsohbby:
your sense of humour to me is not amusing
dabel3er:
i have nukler deck its gd for u
dabel3er:
fuck ur family
dabel3er:
bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
you really need to learn to spell and speak ENGLISH
Nessaroxsohbby:
you know
Nessaroxsohbby:
that language people from the United States are suppose to know but are to retarded to speak most of them.
dabel3er:
ur face is so fucking asshol
dabel3er:
loooool
Nessaroxsohbby:
Again you need to go back to school. English is a class for a reason there buddy.
dabel3er:
am arab not fucking amirca so fuck ur relgin
dabel3er:
fuck ur mom dad ses
Nessaroxsohbby:
I don't have a religion I'm athiest dumbass
Nessaroxsohbby:
wtf is ses?
Nessaroxsohbby:
that Arab?
dabel3er:
15 m deck its gd
dabel3er:
sester
dabel3er:
bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
Your going to fuck a 15 m Dog who has a deck?
Nessaroxsohbby:
What?
dabel3er:
ur ass is big
dabel3er:
ohhhhhh
Nessaroxsohbby:
I know and most men think it's hot.
Nessaroxsohbby:
Thanks for that Captain Obvious.
dabel3er:
mmm u r bh that good
Nessaroxsohbby:
Bh
Nessaroxsohbby:
Big hottie
Nessaroxsohbby:
thanks.
dabel3er:
if i but my deck in ur ass u will expload
dabel3er:
dabel3er:
looooooooooooooooool
dabel3er:
fuck ur face ohhhhhhhh
Nessaroxsohbby:
You have the worst burns I have ever heard
Nessaroxsohbby:
my nephews can do better
Nessaroxsohbby:
and one of them is 6
Nessaroxsohbby:
what next
Nessaroxsohbby:
gonna call me a Poophead
Nessaroxsohbby:
a meaniepants?
Nessaroxsohbby:
hhhmm?
dabel3er:
i know how to tolke shit only so come suck my deck its huuuug deck
Nessaroxsohbby:
I don't want to hug your deck and btw it's Dick. and you can't talk shit since you can't even spell talk.
dabel3er:
ohhh u r booorn fucking girl fuck u tink u r teatcher fuck ur face ugly face hhhhhh go see black man to fuck u asshol
dabel3er:
go to hell see u bh bb
Nessaroxsohbby:
Uh I'm not a teacher I just have a brain. I don't need a black man I have a native k thanks. Altho it's not hard to get a black guy. And you really need to come out of the closet that your gay cause I think you have some inner problems cause your fucked up.
Nessaroxsohbby:
Get help. k thanks.
Nessaroxsohbby:
and I'm already going to hell and I'm alright with it xD lol
Huge Update on me so far.
Lots of things have happened. So much that I barely know where to start.
Alright so I guess I will start with the stuff to do with Hector. Although I won't say everything that happened between us or bad mouth him or anything like that cause it's not fair.
So Hector and me have not been doing well. He broke up with me about a month ago. We tried to hold on. But everything that happened between us. The hurt feelings the broken promises the fear it just got to us. And we finally ended up falling apart. What really does hurt me is the fact that after we broke up he's been drinking and going out with girls. And I on the other hand have done nothing along those lines. I've actually just been sitting @ home and crying when no1 else is around to vent and feel better.
Well we broke up cause I told him my love for him was fading. But it wasn't dead and that's sadly what he didn't understand and the fact that he won't fight is alright I understand. You shouldn't fight for something that isn't worth it. And I'm to tired to go it's alright I'll fix it! Like I used to I don't have the energy anymore.
Then we go on to Sam. Sam has been angry about Danny since him and Danny met and they got into a fight. The fight itself was stupid and Danny just shrugged it off and moved on. But Sam for some retarded reason has to hang on to it and always comment about it to me and then bad talk Danny to me. Which I do not appreciate. Btw. Race has nothing to do with anything people. So fuck off about it. To not date someone because of their race is really fuckin low. I'm a white girl. So your typical white girl would be a whore. Do I look like a whore to you? I thought not. People shouldn't judge when they don't even know the person. It's rude and unacceptable. And I'm finally putting my foot down. You will now get a warning if you are talking about someone. 2nd you get blocked. 3rd blocked for a week. 4th your gone. I'm tired of this childish bs. Someone as old as you should not be acting this way. It's pathetic and un needed and causes me more stress and drama than I need.
After 3-4 weeks of being broken up with Hector I am going out with Danny as of today. I still dunno how I feel about it. I can tell right now that my health is slowly beginning to fade and that depression seems to be getting the best of me lately as I have been not eating and just sitting on my computer listening to sad music and crying. Thank goodness for Doll who attempts to make me feel better and forget all the pain that people cause me. I love her for everything she tries to help me with. And she may not be near me but she is a true friend. Not like some people who live in the same town as me but ignore half my texts and everything.
My health is fading fast and soon I might end up getting really sick. I can tell the stress is to much because my back and shoulder always hurt. I have migranes. And I always feel weak and tired. Just now I almost collapsed a few times just walking up the stairs. I'm tired of the fighting the arguing and all the drama bs. If you aren't going to grow up then your gone. You've all hit the last fuckin line and I'm fuckin tired of it.
I'm tired of ppl instead of calling me sending me a message on facebook. It's not hard to look in the phonebook and look up L Godlien and then dial my number and then say why you can't make it. And stop ditching me constantly when I make days. Cause it's a waste of my time and someone else's that I could have been spending that day with who WOULD have been there.
All I know that currently right now if ppl don't stop their bs I am going to get really sick and end up either not going to work or possibly even ending up in the hospital. And I can guarantee you my true friends will not be happy and neither will Danny my bf to hear I'm in the hospital cause of ppl's bs.
I'm also done hearing people bitch about how horrible their life is but doing NOTHING TO CHANGE IT! DO FUCKIN SOMETHING FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! I'm pretty sure your life is NOT that horrible. So Suck it up and fuckin deal with it like an adult. Get things in order. Get your plans in gear. And fuckin FALL THROUGH WITH IT.
On the bright side me and Kellie went shopping yesterday. It was uber fun spent like so much money yesterday hahaha but it was nice to do something for myself instead of not spending having to save and all the pressure. It was a good release. It was also epic watching Kellie play L4D with me. I love that girl. Hopefully soon me and her can see each other. 8D She's a cutie and a sweetie <3 But I bought a lot of nice shirts. Message me or email or pm or whatever if you would like to see them.
I also don't mind helping people with their feelings. But you also have to realize everyone that I can't take much of solving everyone's problems as of now cause I am already way in over my head as it is.
I basically think my rant is done. I would like to thank Kain, Kellie, Doll, and Danny I dunno what for but just cause I can <3 Love you guys and all my friends. And I love you baby <3
Nessa out.
Alright so I guess I will start with the stuff to do with Hector. Although I won't say everything that happened between us or bad mouth him or anything like that cause it's not fair.
So Hector and me have not been doing well. He broke up with me about a month ago. We tried to hold on. But everything that happened between us. The hurt feelings the broken promises the fear it just got to us. And we finally ended up falling apart. What really does hurt me is the fact that after we broke up he's been drinking and going out with girls. And I on the other hand have done nothing along those lines. I've actually just been sitting @ home and crying when no1 else is around to vent and feel better.
Well we broke up cause I told him my love for him was fading. But it wasn't dead and that's sadly what he didn't understand and the fact that he won't fight is alright I understand. You shouldn't fight for something that isn't worth it. And I'm to tired to go it's alright I'll fix it! Like I used to I don't have the energy anymore.
Then we go on to Sam. Sam has been angry about Danny since him and Danny met and they got into a fight. The fight itself was stupid and Danny just shrugged it off and moved on. But Sam for some retarded reason has to hang on to it and always comment about it to me and then bad talk Danny to me. Which I do not appreciate. Btw. Race has nothing to do with anything people. So fuck off about it. To not date someone because of their race is really fuckin low. I'm a white girl. So your typical white girl would be a whore. Do I look like a whore to you? I thought not. People shouldn't judge when they don't even know the person. It's rude and unacceptable. And I'm finally putting my foot down. You will now get a warning if you are talking about someone. 2nd you get blocked. 3rd blocked for a week. 4th your gone. I'm tired of this childish bs. Someone as old as you should not be acting this way. It's pathetic and un needed and causes me more stress and drama than I need.
After 3-4 weeks of being broken up with Hector I am going out with Danny as of today. I still dunno how I feel about it. I can tell right now that my health is slowly beginning to fade and that depression seems to be getting the best of me lately as I have been not eating and just sitting on my computer listening to sad music and crying. Thank goodness for Doll who attempts to make me feel better and forget all the pain that people cause me. I love her for everything she tries to help me with. And she may not be near me but she is a true friend. Not like some people who live in the same town as me but ignore half my texts and everything.
My health is fading fast and soon I might end up getting really sick. I can tell the stress is to much because my back and shoulder always hurt. I have migranes. And I always feel weak and tired. Just now I almost collapsed a few times just walking up the stairs. I'm tired of the fighting the arguing and all the drama bs. If you aren't going to grow up then your gone. You've all hit the last fuckin line and I'm fuckin tired of it.
I'm tired of ppl instead of calling me sending me a message on facebook. It's not hard to look in the phonebook and look up L Godlien and then dial my number and then say why you can't make it. And stop ditching me constantly when I make days. Cause it's a waste of my time and someone else's that I could have been spending that day with who WOULD have been there.
All I know that currently right now if ppl don't stop their bs I am going to get really sick and end up either not going to work or possibly even ending up in the hospital. And I can guarantee you my true friends will not be happy and neither will Danny my bf to hear I'm in the hospital cause of ppl's bs.
I'm also done hearing people bitch about how horrible their life is but doing NOTHING TO CHANGE IT! DO FUCKIN SOMETHING FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! I'm pretty sure your life is NOT that horrible. So Suck it up and fuckin deal with it like an adult. Get things in order. Get your plans in gear. And fuckin FALL THROUGH WITH IT.
On the bright side me and Kellie went shopping yesterday. It was uber fun spent like so much money yesterday hahaha but it was nice to do something for myself instead of not spending having to save and all the pressure. It was a good release. It was also epic watching Kellie play L4D with me. I love that girl. Hopefully soon me and her can see each other. 8D She's a cutie and a sweetie <3 But I bought a lot of nice shirts. Message me or email or pm or whatever if you would like to see them.
I also don't mind helping people with their feelings. But you also have to realize everyone that I can't take much of solving everyone's problems as of now cause I am already way in over my head as it is.
I basically think my rant is done. I would like to thank Kain, Kellie, Doll, and Danny I dunno what for but just cause I can <3 Love you guys and all my friends. And I love you baby <3
Nessa out.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sometimes I wonder if people are out to ruin your life just to make them feel about there life... Our house is crammed enough and all my mom ever does is yell @ me.... right now I honestly just want to run away because I'm tired of all the bs... all the people that yell @ me when shit happens... how people try and blame me and say I was going to go with them somewhere when I told them first off that I couldn't and that I already had plans and they knew that.... I'm starting to lose my faith in everything..... except a few good people... and Hector.....
Maybe Hector is right.... maybe I'm way to attached to him when I shouldn't be.... but he has to realize that he's the only thing that has made me happy and I don't want to lose that... I've lost enough... and been hurt enough... and been stepped on and destroyed that now I think it's time I deserve a small shred of happiness... and my happiness is with him... and somehow I am going to get him to Canada.... We will be together no matter what it takes... Because Hector is the only one I want the only one I want forever... Fuck everyone else if they can't treat me right anymore then there gone.
I'll be just fine.. pretending I'm not... I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've Goottt..... yea it's all that I've got.... it's all that I've got...........
Maybe Hector is right.... maybe I'm way to attached to him when I shouldn't be.... but he has to realize that he's the only thing that has made me happy and I don't want to lose that... I've lost enough... and been hurt enough... and been stepped on and destroyed that now I think it's time I deserve a small shred of happiness... and my happiness is with him... and somehow I am going to get him to Canada.... We will be together no matter what it takes... Because Hector is the only one I want the only one I want forever... Fuck everyone else if they can't treat me right anymore then there gone.
I'll be just fine.. pretending I'm not... I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've Goottt..... yea it's all that I've got.... it's all that I've got...........
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Doctor?
People have been worried about me a lot lately. I have been having problems breathing sometimes when it comes to night. I think it might be because I need an extra pillow to elevate my head or maybe I have to many pillows and it's blocking my wind pipe.
I'm gonna try both and see what one it might be but I guess I should go to the doctor. It's been really freaking out Hector since he usually hears it when we're on the phone.
It happens more when I'm laying down than anything. And I used to have little spasms like this they wouldn't last that long but I'm getting them more often and more frequent. And it's really started to scare me and everyone who hears it and is around when it happens. I'm hoping it's not something like Asthma or Second Hand Smoking. I hope it's just something that can be fixed with something simple and not possibly happen again. But I do hope it's something treatable and not a pain in the ass. >_<
I'm gonna try both and see what one it might be but I guess I should go to the doctor. It's been really freaking out Hector since he usually hears it when we're on the phone.
It happens more when I'm laying down than anything. And I used to have little spasms like this they wouldn't last that long but I'm getting them more often and more frequent. And it's really started to scare me and everyone who hears it and is around when it happens. I'm hoping it's not something like Asthma or Second Hand Smoking. I hope it's just something that can be fixed with something simple and not possibly happen again. But I do hope it's something treatable and not a pain in the ass. >_<
Friday, April 17, 2009
I'm really glad for my one friend. Well actually 2 of them. They're really good people. There names are Danny and Sam.
Whenever I'm having a bad time they always let me call them or call me and talk to me about it and calm me down and make me feel better. They usually do this when Hector isn't there and I need someone to really talk to and I'm usually crying.
Danny is known as my creeper but well he's stopped being as creepy as he used to be. And he's just a regular guy. You can't find any better guys than this I'm sure of it. They're always there, understanding, kind. They are really great friends
and I know that they will find the person they love and will spend there life with them <3 And I'm pretty sure that we will still be friends then xD
Sam and Danny were there through the Blair and Arley incidents. Sam has been here a little longer but that's alright shit happens sometimes. I'm sure they would have loved to know me before they did but you know shit happens a lot of the time xD
Whenever I'm having a bad time they always let me call them or call me and talk to me about it and calm me down and make me feel better. They usually do this when Hector isn't there and I need someone to really talk to and I'm usually crying.
Danny is known as my creeper but well he's stopped being as creepy as he used to be. And he's just a regular guy. You can't find any better guys than this I'm sure of it. They're always there, understanding, kind. They are really great friends
and I know that they will find the person they love and will spend there life with them <3 And I'm pretty sure that we will still be friends then xD
Sam and Danny were there through the Blair and Arley incidents. Sam has been here a little longer but that's alright shit happens sometimes. I'm sure they would have loved to know me before they did but you know shit happens a lot of the time xD
Stressed
I'm pretty stressed out I woke up having my stupid time of the month. It's hard for me to walk @ all when that's happening either because of the extreme amount of pain I experience while it's happening.
It usually disappears after the 3rd day Well it's the 2nd day. And I can barely walk and nothing is working I will have to go on birth control so that it will be controlled.
My mom was trying to force me to go into work today and I just can't because my emotions are shot and if one person says something mean to me or anything or if I take it the wrong way I burst into tears. And i'm working with the 2 biggest bitches today so I decided that I should go tomorrow when my emotions will be better. Well mom doesn't understand that.. and yea she's gonna flip on me when she gets home I know it. But I'm going to go make Meat Lasagna for the family and play RE5 while I wait for it to cook *sigh*
It usually disappears after the 3rd day Well it's the 2nd day. And I can barely walk and nothing is working I will have to go on birth control so that it will be controlled.
My mom was trying to force me to go into work today and I just can't because my emotions are shot and if one person says something mean to me or anything or if I take it the wrong way I burst into tears. And i'm working with the 2 biggest bitches today so I decided that I should go tomorrow when my emotions will be better. Well mom doesn't understand that.. and yea she's gonna flip on me when she gets home I know it. But I'm going to go make Meat Lasagna for the family and play RE5 while I wait for it to cook *sigh*
Yesterday's Incidents.
Yesterday I was really pissed. Every since my brother moved in with my family he has been like I dunno.
My mom says she buys these things for me and then gives them to my brother. And I usually need the Mars bar for energy for work especially the night shift and all that.
Then I was playing my Xbox360 it's hooked to the TV upstairs and everything and I NEVER get to play usually. Well my brother comes upstairs and says that he wants to watch the hockey game. And I'm very pissed off cause there is a fuckin TV with surround sound downstairs and shit. And mom says I should get off and then I do and I'm pissed because I never get to play and there is a TV downstairs and everything.
I was just having an all out shitty day yesterday. I hope soon days get better again.
My mom says she buys these things for me and then gives them to my brother. And I usually need the Mars bar for energy for work especially the night shift and all that.
Then I was playing my Xbox360 it's hooked to the TV upstairs and everything and I NEVER get to play usually. Well my brother comes upstairs and says that he wants to watch the hockey game. And I'm very pissed off cause there is a fuckin TV with surround sound downstairs and shit. And mom says I should get off and then I do and I'm pissed because I never get to play and there is a TV downstairs and everything.
I was just having an all out shitty day yesterday. I hope soon days get better again.
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