Huge Update on me so far.

Lots of things have happened. So much that I barely know where to start.

Alright so I guess I will start with the stuff to do with Hector. Although I won't say everything that happened between us or bad mouth him or anything like that cause it's not fair.

So Hector and me have not been doing well. He broke up with me about a month ago. We tried to hold on. But everything that happened between us. The hurt feelings the broken promises the fear it just got to us. And we finally ended up falling apart. What really does hurt me is the fact that after we broke up he's been drinking and going out with girls. And I on the other hand have done nothing along those lines. I've actually just been sitting @ home and crying when no1 else is around to vent and feel better.

Well we broke up cause I told him my love for him was fading. But it wasn't dead and that's sadly what he didn't understand and the fact that he won't fight is alright I understand. You shouldn't fight for something that isn't worth it. And I'm to tired to go it's alright I'll fix it! Like I used to I don't have the energy anymore.

Then we go on to Sam. Sam has been angry about Danny since him and Danny met and they got into a fight. The fight itself was stupid and Danny just shrugged it off and moved on. But Sam for some retarded reason has to hang on to it and always comment about it to me and then bad talk Danny to me. Which I do not appreciate. Btw. Race has nothing to do with anything people. So fuck off about it. To not date someone because of their race is really fuckin low. I'm a white girl. So your typical white girl would be a whore. Do I look like a whore to you? I thought not. People shouldn't judge when they don't even know the person. It's rude and unacceptable. And I'm finally putting my foot down. You will now get a warning if you are talking about someone. 2nd you get blocked. 3rd blocked for a week. 4th your gone. I'm tired of this childish bs. Someone as old as you should not be acting this way. It's pathetic and un needed and causes me more stress and drama than I need.

After 3-4 weeks of being broken up with Hector I am going out with Danny as of today. I still dunno how I feel about it. I can tell right now that my health is slowly beginning to fade and that depression seems to be getting the best of me lately as I have been not eating and just sitting on my computer listening to sad music and crying. Thank goodness for Doll who attempts to make me feel better and forget all the pain that people cause me. I love her for everything she tries to help me with. And she may not be near me but she is a true friend. Not like some people who live in the same town as me but ignore half my texts and everything.


My health is fading fast and soon I might end up getting really sick. I can tell the stress is to much because my back and shoulder always hurt. I have migranes. And I always feel weak and tired. Just now I almost collapsed a few times just walking up the stairs. I'm tired of the fighting the arguing and all the drama bs. If you aren't going to grow up then your gone. You've all hit the last fuckin line and I'm fuckin tired of it.

I'm tired of ppl instead of calling me sending me a message on facebook. It's not hard to look in the phonebook and look up L Godlien and then dial my number and then say why you can't make it. And stop ditching me constantly when I make days. Cause it's a waste of my time and someone else's that I could have been spending that day with who WOULD have been there.


All I know that currently right now if ppl don't stop their bs I am going to get really sick and end up either not going to work or possibly even ending up in the hospital. And I can guarantee you my true friends will not be happy and neither will Danny my bf to hear I'm in the hospital cause of ppl's bs.

I'm also done hearing people bitch about how horrible their life is but doing NOTHING TO CHANGE IT! DO FUCKIN SOMETHING FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! I'm pretty sure your life is NOT that horrible. So Suck it up and fuckin deal with it like an adult. Get things in order. Get your plans in gear. And fuckin FALL THROUGH WITH IT.


On the bright side me and Kellie went shopping yesterday. It was uber fun spent like so much money yesterday hahaha but it was nice to do something for myself instead of not spending having to save and all the pressure. It was a good release. It was also epic watching Kellie play L4D with me. I love that girl. Hopefully soon me and her can see each other. 8D She's a cutie and a sweetie <3 But I bought a lot of nice shirts. Message me or email or pm or whatever if you would like to see them.

I also don't mind helping people with their feelings. But you also have to realize everyone that I can't take much of solving everyone's problems as of now cause I am already way in over my head as it is.


I basically think my rant is done. I would like to thank Kain, Kellie, Doll, and Danny I dunno what for but just cause I can <3 Love you guys and all my friends. And I love you baby <3

Nessa out.