Sometimes I wonder if people are out to ruin your life just to make them feel about there life... Our house is crammed enough and all my mom ever does is yell @ me.... right now I honestly just want to run away because I'm tired of all the bs... all the people that yell @ me when shit happens... how people try and blame me and say I was going to go with them somewhere when I told them first off that I couldn't and that I already had plans and they knew that.... I'm starting to lose my faith in everything..... except a few good people... and Hector.....

Maybe Hector is right.... maybe I'm way to attached to him when I shouldn't be.... but he has to realize that he's the only thing that has made me happy and I don't want to lose that... I've lost enough... and been hurt enough... and been stepped on and destroyed that now I think it's time I deserve a small shred of happiness... and my happiness is with him... and somehow I am going to get him to Canada.... We will be together no matter what it takes... Because Hector is the only one I want the only one I want forever... Fuck everyone else if they can't treat me right anymore then there gone.

I'll be just fine.. pretending I'm not... I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've Goottt..... yea it's all that I've got.... it's all that I've got...........