Been Forever

Been forever since I wrote a frickin blog. Just been so busy with work and sleeping and just finished hanging out with friends which I haven't done in forever now. Some people all saying that their my friends and me questioning how loyal they are and everything.

Rejected work tonight was hanging out with a friend who came out of town and didn't want to ditch him or blow him off or anything (no not blowing off in that way he's gay and family xP)

Got an Xbox360 recently was really excited it's red and I got Resident Evil 5 xD And I have Left 4 Dead! I'm trying to find new games that are suppose to be fun to get <3333 I've heard good things about Assassin's Creed so I'm thinking about getting that one! <3 And I have to get the online play thing and shit so that I can play with my friends online xD Well I have a few that want me too xD

I dunno lately I have been feeling really shitty. A lot of stuff going through my mind. Some stress that I have to deal with. I miss Hannah a lot. It's been getting to the point where it's starting to effect me physically again as in getting sick and crying a bit more than I usually do. I usually never cry anymore. I dunno maybe it's cause I don't feel much anymore because I don't usually give a shit about people that don't matter

I'm hoping things go well and well not according to plan but @ least turn out ok in the end! It would be nice to have good stuff happen instead of all this negative shit. I just hope... in the end sometime soon... I will start getting my big breaks for being a good person and everything.... Lack of sleep and stress have been making me not myself lately and some people are even starting to worry i might get sick or something and possibly end up in the hospital but I think they're just being buttheads. And then there are the people who say they care but probably wouldn't if that ever did happen and try to get ahold of me and shit like that. Luckily I know who those people are and soon here I am going to get rid of them one by one.

I've also been stressed because people have been putting their drama on me lately. Drama that could easily be fixed but they don't and continue to cause it. I mean I can handle helping people with their problems and counselling but I don't need un-needed drama all the time in my life for fuck sakes. I dunno some people just need to grow up. That's just how I feel about it for the most part. Guess I should sleep since I haven't been sleeping well cause of work and stress. I work a whole week and I already know that's going to be hell as it is. UGH!

ONE DAY I hope to make a site somewhere to make a walkthrough for games! Or @ least a few! It's always been a goal/dream of mine for some reason I know it's lame but I'm over it xD