Nightly Thoughts

I'm sitting here it's 12:55 and I'm very deep into thought. As I sit here and draw and type on my blog I wonder what the world has in store for me. Who my true friends are and who are not. Who will always be with me like they promised and those who will break that promise and leave me all alone. Who will stand up for me when someone attacks me.

Life sure isn't easy but it's not as complicated as some people make it seem. I have a job I love to death. I am going in the field of Healthcare and I'm loving the thought of it. Some people say that they can't even imagine doing my job. That the thought of bathing an elderly person makes them gag. Well think about it. Someone's gotta do it. And you know one day someone is going to have to do it for you when your old and crippled and fragile. So it doesn't really bother me as much as some people.

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about mine and Hector's future together. I've never told him but I want him to pursue his career and get a good education. He's really smart and I do want him to become a computer technician / programmer. I think that he will be truly happy doing it like I am with my current job. It's obvious that he enjoys working with computers and that he has an advantage over most people when it comes to technology. I want him to succeed in his dream and know that I will be there every step of the way.

Sometimes when I see little children playing and laughing I smile. Wondering how my children are going to be. Who's facial features they will have more of (mine or Hector's). What their personality will be like. What dreams and goals they will have. What type of life and career they will lead. What clothes they will wear. Who their friends will be. How many times their hearts will be broken. Who they will spend their life with. How my grandchildren will be.

The thing that i know so far is that. Hector is that someone I want to spend my life with. The career I am seeking is one I definitely will be happy doing maybe not all my life but for the time being. That my dreams will come true and that somehow in some way things may be tough but in the end it will all work out <3