Sometimes shit sucks. I see a bunch of people who are uber pretty and everything. Got everything they want in life and got it all planned out. And I look at myself. People say I'm pretty but you know I seem to not have a talent at all that anyone seems to care about. My drawing looks nub. I say I'm a gamer girl and people laugh at me. And that's all I really got going for me.

I'm thinking about taking up sewing, scrapbooking, and drawing more often. To see if I can find a hidden talent in there somewhere. I'm hoping something happens in there. The only thing that I have ever been good at besides Video Games is school but I'm done with that now.

Maybe here soon i will buy a Tablet a cheap one and start drawing online and see how that goes for me. It would be easier because I don't have a scanner and they cost lots of money and I wanted to open a shop on Gaia. But I really doubt anyone will really buy because my art isn't THAT good. But one day I hope to be a good artist <3 One day *sigh*

People think my life is great and everything when in reality I had dreams and am probably never going to get them either. Like being a model for anything in general like someone who makes their own clothes and wants someone to show them off and everything. Because the world doesn't have enough room for a big person like me